Often times in life, I find myself looking at my reflection in the mirror contemplating my life. With the choices I’ve made, where I’m at physically, mentally, and financially. The friends I have, along with millions of other things. Ever since I was a little girl, I had a plan of how my life was going to play out. I knew what I wanted to do when I graduated high school with my career. I knew that nursing would be the right option and I followed through with that.
I also had some other plans like finding the love of my life in college or joining certain organizations. Planning what my life was going to be like after college. Who my friends and family would be. I thought I had it all figured out until I realized that it wasn’t God’s purpose for me to live by a specific plan. I didn’t do certain things that I thought I would always do. I don’t have some of the same people in my life that I thought would be there. I haven’t found my one true love yet. I’m not the most financially stable I thought I would be. I don’t work in my dream area yet with nursing and you know what? IT’S OKAY!
It’s okay to not be exactly where you thought you would be a couple years ago. Life is meant to be spontaneous. Life is meant to take you by surprise and not follow a specific path. God has a crazy way of showing us where we are meant to be. Things happen for a reason. If you want a specific dream, reach for it. If it hasn’t happened yet, that doesn’t mean that it won’t ever happen. Maybe there’s a reason it hasn’t became a reality yet. Timing is everything and that’s something we should not be rushing. We will all find our place in this world and be who we are meant to be.
I believe in fate and that things will work out. It took me a long time to realize this but God has shown me the way. I have always tried to be an optimist but I used to carry a negative energy with me. I wanted to believe that things will fall into place but there was something always holding me back. I didn’t believe in myself and the potential that I had. Even with friends and family expressing how much i had going for me and what there was to come, I didn’t believe it. I prayed and prayed about it. God proved to me that everything will fall into place. So I was to not worry about what was happening at that moment or what I didn’t have. I was to appreciate everything that I did have and what was to come. Looking back I’m not ashamed of how I felt. I actually am thankful because it brought me to where I am. I’m stronger than what I was a year ago or even a few years ago.
I wanted to share with you that as a young girl in her 20s, I feel like I’m stuck in this in between stage. Fresh out of college but also already working in my desired career. I feel like there is an expectation of where I should be in my life. But I’m here to tell you that it is okay to not know where you are supposed to be yet. If you’re still figuring it out, it is okay. If you have no idea what you want to do with your life, it is okay. Don’t let the pressures of society push you into a place you’re not ready for. Be patient, trust God, and believe that everything will fall into place eventually.